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Monday, February 23, 2015

X-Files Describes "Confessions of an Aging God"

The X-Files, in their own unique way describe what's going on in reality. This episode describes the situation from a story, "Confessions of an Aging God" by Jan Erik Sigdell.

 The X-Files Season 2, Episode 3: Blood; Mulder and Scully investigate a series of violent killings committed by seemingly normal residents of a small town.

The way the people in this episode are manipulated, straight from the scientific laboratories, the scientists who created some pesticides, to the technology/computers, to the people who become victims to that plan, shows us there is something going on behind the scenes, and this story I found describes exactly how all the pieces of this puzzle fit. I have excerpted it here for you to read for yourself:

Confessions of an Aging God
by Jan Erik Sigdell

"This manipulated people were and are not evil! However, they were victims of the manipulation by YHWH, who wanted to use them for very selfish purposes."


"My name is Enki and I belong to a people called the Anunnaki (modernized singular: Anunnaku) that lives on a planet called Nibiru.

We were created by the original creator, the highest God - who is actually a pair of a male and a female part - but we revolted and turned our backs to them because we wanted to live and do in our own ways without their interference.

Therefore, we created the myth of having killed them in self-defense because (as the myth claims) they wanted to destroy us for seeking total freedom. It is, of course, impossible to kill the original creators, but that way we let our people believe that they would be fully independent. They are not aware that they, in this manner, came to live in a dark region of the creation, since they no more know the true light.

The Anunnaki are five-dimensional beings and therefore are usually invisible to Earth humans.

We can, however, make ourselves visible through centering ourselves in three dimensions rather than in higher ones. We live very long by earthly measures, easily a thousand years, and with life-prolonging measures even up to ten thousand years.

But when we are on Earth we age much faster and then need to actively prolong our lives to counteract this.
The Babylonians knew about this - in the way we had mythologized it - and wrote about it on clay plates in their creation story Enuma Elish and other texts. The earthly science fails to grasp the full width of it and refuses to see this as a cosmic event involving extraterrestrials, and that is good for us. They need not understand more.

Since we are five-dimensional we master space travel in ways that cannot be understood in three dimensions, and our technology is accordingly very different from what Earth humans know.
This is reflected in my book that you call the Old Testament. The very first sentence in the book is usually translated as “In the beginning, God created the heaven and Earth.” Here the word, translated as “God,” undeniably is in the plural form, and therefore means “gods”. One has tried to sweep this question under the carpet through declaring it a pluralis majestatis.

To merely translate as “gods” doesn’t fit grammatically, since the verb translated as “created” is in singular. But there is another solution. The first word that is translated as “in the beginning” can also mean “the first one”, the one who was in the beginning, the original creator - who we wanted to be unknown.

The word for “heaven” is also in plural and may be translated a bit freely as “cosmic worlds.”

We then have:

“The first one created the gods, the cosmic worlds, and the Earth”, which is in agreement with the Babylonian record and our true history.
Among these “gods” are we, the Anunnaki.
We came to the Earth many thousands of years ago to excavate certain minerals that we needed on our planet. We were based mainly in Mesopotamia and Sinai and had mining activities in what is today called Israel and also in Africa.

No clear remains of this activity can be found today, since, before we left, we destroyed all of it through nuclear explosions - such as in Sodom and Gomorrah (where we claimed that the people would be sinful only because they knew too much about us) - and only ruins of what was made for us by Earth humans can be found at certain locations, among them some ruins in the jungles of central Africa that still puzzle archeologists.
For the mining and excavation activities, we first had our own people, but they after some time rebelled, saying that the work was too heavy for them. So we had a conference about the problem and decided to create a worker. Through genetic experiments, mixing our genes with such of Earth life forms, we had little success in the beginning.

The first beings we made that way were faulty in various manners. But at the end, we succeeded in producing what we called lullu, the worker. They bred, and when we had enough of them they were put to work in the mines and excavations.

There were at that time also other people on the Earth, mainly at other and rather far away locations, and it would have been difficult to force them to work for us. But now we had our self-made slaves. The work was hard, and they also suffered from poisons and radioactivity in the mines (especially when we had them take out uranium), but since they were not worth much more to us than animals, we just replaced them with new ones.

That way was easier than constructing machines for the work.
When we later left the Earth, we let them breed on in their own ways, but we wanted to keep control over them and influence their development in ways we wanted. Therefore, a few of us stayed on the Earth, and I was one of them. We then faced the problem of prolonging our lives in the earthly circumstances and live as long as an Anunnaku should and not as short as Earth humans.

We can eat food that Earth humans eat, but that is not very life prolonging for us. The way to prolong our lives is to feed from subtle life energies of living beings. Such energies are set free when they die and are carried in their blood. For those who have a certain degree of clairvoyance, they can be seen as like a mist above freshly shed blood, and it is that mist that we take.

That is why we demanded sacrifices from people on this planet, especially blood sacrifices. Actually, we can take life energy from dying bodies even without bloodshed, but it is easier if the blood is let out. And that is why we want people to fight and kill and put aggression, anger and fear into their genes. When a human dies sick or old, there is very little life energy left; his “batteries” are quite empty.

When he dies fully active and being well alive until then, he is full of life energy that then is set free for us to take. That is why we kindle aggression and war.

For the same reason, we established a law that humans should not eat blood. When they slaughter animals, they must let the blood flow out, which carries life energies. The blood is for us, the meat is for them.

But the better life energies we get from humans and not from animals. Lower forms of life are even less valuable to us, and that is why we made a law that humans should not kill and eat certain animals, since that mainly feeds only them, but not us.
I keep the story short here, leaving out much that happened while the Anunnaki were still on Earth, since there are more important points I want to get to. What else would be there to tell can be read about in the Babylonian texts.
I needed a sufficiently big group of people for my energetic feeding and saw an opportunity in Egypt, where a large group of nomads lived, not really enslaved by the Egyptians but by them treated rather as second-rate people. They were called Hebrews and wanted, of course, to get out of the situation they were living in, so I decided to help them and that way get my own devoted people as an existential basis for myself.

An Egyptian called Moses (not really one of them) was found suitable to lead them and I influenced him, inspiring him and manipulating his thoughts. He requested from the Pharaoh that the Hebrews may leave the country, but I didn’t want that to happen too easily, since I wished to demonstrate my power and that way get more devotion from the people.

The Pharaoh was a few times prepared to let them go, but I hardened his heart (Ex 7:13) to change his mind, so that I could let plagues come over the country to show my power. Then he definitely agreed to let them go, and I had Moses lead them out of the country to a land I had promised for them. They first crossed the Red Sea, where I through gravity manipulations pushed away enough water so that they could pass.

Then they walked many years on the Sinai Peninsula, feeding and supporting themselves in a way I liked, since they raided other people and villages there to kill them and steal from them. That way I had more life energy to reap.

After a long time, they reached the land I had promised them, but it wasn’t empty and free. People lived there in townships. But it actually was one of the lands where we had been based before the Anunnaki left, and for that reason I wanted them to live there.

So I had Moses tell them that they should mercilessly kill them all and not spare anyone, so that they could live in houses they hadn’t built, drink from wells they hadn’t dug and eat olives and drink wine from trees and vineyards they hadn’t planted.
(Deut 6:11)

And they did as they were told and I had a very big harvest of life energy… In some cases they were allowed to keep only young virgins alive, for sexual services.
 (Judg 21:12)
The Old Testament describes this in very vivid details, especially in Joshua and Judges.

The Earth humans fail to grasp the width of these biblical stories.
I was now called Yahweh, actually YHWH without vowels, which leaves a few interpretations of the name open, depending on which vowels one wants to give to it. The common interpretation is “he is” (“I am the one who is”), but with different vowels, other meanings become possible.

One of them is even “he brings calamity”… Well, the latter is actually what I did to them for my own sake, so that there would be a good supply of life energy for me. Earth people are really not much more than mere cattle to Anunnaki.

I also made them believe that I would be the original creator who had created all, and that there would be no higher God than me. A little like the Anunnaki made their people believe that there were no original creators.

When lies serve our purposes, we don’t hesitate to use them.
In the beginning, I also had a consort called Asherah.

But female energies are meek and don’t fit in my plans, so I divorced from her and forbade mentioning her. The male qualities are to be stressed and the females to be regarded as secondary, serving the male. This is in opposition to the original creation, where the male and female were created equal, but it is the way I want it.
After some time, they had taken all that land and started to live their life there. But I needed a continued supply of life energy and wanted bloodshed through violence, killing and wars to go on. For that purpose, I staged conflicts, later among others with the Romans, who invaded their country. I had expected that they would fight the Romans by all possible means so that there would be a lot of killing. But it wasn’t to my satisfaction.

My need for life energy and my concern that I may not be sufficiently able to continue to prolong my life on this planet grew. And I also wanted to spread my power on this planet and had my people leave their country and spread over the world.
It is comparable to having a big farm with a large amount of cattle and killing them when needed. Only, I don’t have to lay on my hands to do it, I have them kill each other! And when I harvest much life energy, I can channel it through higher dimensions to the Anunnaki on Nibiru.
During the time when the Romans ruled the country, a man was born in Israel who was a real nuisance for me. His name was Jeshua (Jesus) and he was apparently sent by an entity much higher than me (which the people shouldn’t know of), called Christ.

He went to the East and came back after having learned much in other countries, and he started to teach a new belief and a way out from my rule to a more peaceful life, a life without violence and killing. He taught the people to love each other indiscriminately - what nonsense! 

How should I get my supply of life energy if they did? I need them to hate and be violent. He also taught people to not obey against their own heart and their own feeling of what is just and what is not.

I want my people to strictly obey up to the last blood drop! Therefore, I had to stop him.

Manipulating the high priest and others, I had them crucify him and hoped that what he had taught would then become forgotten. But that didn’t happen; instead the movement he had started grew stronger and became still more threatening to me. So I decided that I had to infiltrate it and change it to become something that would instead serve me and my purposes.

I sent a vision to Paul and made him believe that he would lead a new branch of Christianity, and he did.

This Jesus also had the impudence to tell the Hebrews about me that;

“You are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father you will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaks a lie, he speaks of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it.” 
(John 8:44).

Isn’t it obvious that I had to get rid of such a creep?
Then there first were two branches of Christianity. There had been two circles around this Jesus: an inner circle with his disciples and others close to him, and an outer circle with people who mainly had listened to his preaching and become interested, but didn’t get really close to him.

There were things he didn’t say in the outer circle but certainly did say in the inner circle. From the inner circle, the Gnostic Christianity grew and later the Paulinian Christianity came out of the outer circle, like a kind of “Christianity light” that lacked many deeper truths that Jesus had taught to his disciples. It was a superficial and modified form of Christianity.

The Gnostic Christians also knew truths about me that I did not in any way want the world to know, such that I am not the highest god I pretend to be and that I am in reality an entity they called Yaldabaoth, a created being with limited knowledge. They wrote about this in texts like The Apokryphon of John (also called The Secret Book of John), which I had disappear, but they were rediscovered in the 20th century.

So I had to get rid of the Gnostic Christians, too.

For that purpose I manipulated Constantine, who had made himself an emperor of the Romans. I had made him believe that he would win if he would fight in the sign of Christ, which was a neat lie, since Christ never wanted fight, but peace. But he did and shed lots of blood from which I could absorb much life energy.

Then I later gave the idea in his head to form a Church as a tool for uniting all Romans in a kind of Christianity that wasn’t a real one. The Christ of that Church isn’t the real Christ, but a fake one I had established for the purpose. He did that at the council in Nicaea in 325.

The Gnostic Christians were also there, but he did what I wanted:

he didn’t let them speak and destroyed their petitions without reading them. After that, Gnostic Christians were considered heretics and slowly disappeared - just what I had wanted.

Much later, a new big Gnostic movement came from the Balkans to Southern France and spread from there: the Cathars.

So I had to get rid of them, too. Manipulating people of the Church, I made them kill them all in the 13th century, and I once more had a lot of life energy to harvest…
Already before that I had played a neat trick to create a parallel religion. Under the name of Al-Lah (“the god”), I made Muhammed found a new religion for me that grew strong. So I then had two religions I could play out against each other in a Machiavellian sense.

Something I could later make good use of for my power and for still more harvest of life energy in bloody fights that I enjoyed a lot. This is much like someone today enjoying cruel computer games, but it isn’t a game. It is reality. They enjoy computer games so much more if there is something to win from them, and to me there is a lot to win in the real “game”. I win life energies from both sides.
My people experienced hardships in their diaspora, but there so far was too little violence and killing for my needs. Something had to be done. Also, some traditions among these people had become meek and soft and they were really not as aggressive as I had wished, such as the Chassidim, the Sephardim and a few others.

There were a people of warriors in the East, called the Khazars, and they were more as I liked. I had them manipulated to convert to the Hebrew beliefs to become a really militant group in that religion. These converted Hebrews spread to the West, mainly to Eastern Europe and Germany, married native Hebrew women there to mix the genes and out of them arose the Askhenazim.

They slowly took control of the Hebrew population in various countries, but the meek Chassidim were still there and I wanted to get rid of them.

When an evil ruler came to power in Germany, I gave into the heads of him and others, to eradicate the Hebrews. And he did, but most of them who died - and again gave me lots of life energy - were Chassidim and other meek Hebrews, whereas the Askhenazim mainly survived, especially since the more important ones had emigrated to the United States. 

So now again, I had a more militant people who furthermore had learned a lot from the Nazis which they could practice against Palestinians in their own country they later had.

Actually, I had the Askhenazim in the United States secretly support the German government in these days, for the purpose of getting rid of meek Hebrews.
It was like a reversed ethnical cleansing, rather an ethnical revolution, since the pseudo-Hebrew Ashkenazim, to a large extent, eliminated real Hebrews to, in my service, become predominating.

An indication for this is that Lord Victor Rothschild was against granting asylum or even help to Jewish refugees during the Holocaust. Another interesting development is that, though founded by Ashkenazim, today’s Masonic Zionism accepts anyone in its rows who serve its interests, Hebrew or not, and it may one day even be an Arab... but it vehemently opposes the many non-Zionist Hebrews.

Zionists are generally non-religious and some are even atheists. I don’t care if they believe in me or not, as long as I can make them do what I want.
For my purposes I had secret societies put at my service.

First there were the Masons, formed during the time of the Inquisition (which served me a lot to shed much blood for me). They formed as a protection for their members against the Inquisition and were a group of people with good intentions and much secret knowledge.

Therefore, they didn’t much serve my interests yet.

In the 18th century I therefore had a group formed that is called the Illuminati, and very much serves my interests. I had them infiltrate the Masons and take the power in their organization, so that also the Masons would serve my purposes. Later I also created the Zionists as a highest Masonic organization to take power over them all.

The Zionists were originally created by me through my people, but they are not all Hebrews. Anyone who serves my purposes can be a Zionist. Not all Zionists are Hebrews and very many Hebrews are not Zionists. By means of the Zionists, I intend to establish my rule over all the Earth. It has been claimed that some Masonic orders are Satanists.

That is true, but Satan is my associate. He is also an Anunnaku and we cooperate well together, and it is only apparent that we are opposite.
Many Zionists regard the killing of the Hebrews in what has been called the “holocaust” as an enormous human sacrifice to me so that I would give them their land back. Well, my intentions were a bit different, as I mentioned before, but such a tasty bloodshed was certainly welcome for me, and I, in any case, wanted them to have their land back because this was in my own interest.

Their land? Well what does it matter that they actually stole it on my command through establishing a big “holocaust” already, then slaughtering each and everyone in a way that also was a kind of a sacrifice. And now I manipulated world powers to let them take the land from the ones who in the meantime lived there since two millennia.
Racism also serves my purposes a lot. There has been, and still is, a lot of that on this planet. It mainly started among the Hebrews who were taught that “gentiles” are worth less than they are, and actually should serve them. They call the “gentiles” goyim, the plural of a word goy that actually means “cattle”.

I also taught them to pray the Kol Nidre and other prayers, which involve that they have no obligations whatsoever to “gentiles” and that the day will come in which the gentiles will lie at their feet to serve them. It is the “good right” of a Hebrew to lie to a goy, cheat him and even kill him.

Later, this became reversed and the Hebrews themselves became subject to racism, which again served my interests in bloodshed.

What I don’t want to have at all is that Hebrews and “gentiles” join in a peaceful brotherhood of love and tolerance! That would sabotage my plans…
The Zionist racism is a development that amuses me. It not only turns against goyim, who many an Isreali Zionist regards as “two-legged animals” (!), but also against peaceful Hebrews that don’t belong to the originally non-Hebrew but converted Ashkenazim. Thus, e.g., in Israel, immigrated dark-skinned Hebrews from Sudan are treated like the colored people were earlier, still more than today treated in the USA!

Who has a heart for Palestinians is not rarely beaten up, as are the anti-Zionist Hebrews. There are many of the latter, but one wants to silence them. All that is something my cruel heart enjoys.
This idea of being a “chosen people” is a delusion I created since they were chosen by me and in no way by the original creator. It is in many ways comparable to the Nazi idea of “√úbermensch”, originally introduced by Nietzsche, another delusion I had given to the earthlings. It is only a trick to make them my tools. When people blame them for much that happened and happens in the world, it is merely because I make them do it.

This is, actually what Jesus meant when he said on the cross:

“Father, forgive them, because they don’t know what they are doing”
(Luc 23:34).
But I prefer to let people believe that they themselves did what they are blamed for, and not that I made them do it...

The Zionists elaborated a clever plan that I inspired to them and it became known as The Protocols of the Elders of Zion (or Sion) that has been heavily criticized as a fraud, but today everyone who knows it can recognize how it is being put in action in the world by means of artificial financial crises and the like, designed to take control of private and general finances.
There were several peoples on the Earth that had not been under the rule of the Anunnaki, but in some cases under other and more benevolent extraterrestrials, even though in a few cases people were also abused by them, such as the earthly people of Egypt. There were also very few others who wanted bloodshed for their energetic feeding, like those ruling the Aztecs.

But others were more peaceful and benevolent, like those ruling the Incas and the original Mayas (who became cruel only after the Aztec invasion). It was similar in the Asian countries.

So I had my “Christians” invade these countries to violently convert them to my brand of Christianity, with much satisfying bloodshed. In India, China, and Japan, it wasn’t that easy, but much could be done through British occupation, but not enough. Communism later destroyed unwanted spirituality in China, and the Hindu culture at least became more superficial.

Today, commercialism and big business does the rest there, in my interest. I don’t know where the gods of India are gone, but we fought heavily with them in the beginning, thousands of years ago, and we fear that they may come back one day. They are also intermediate gods, but were too benevolent and tolerant with the Earth people, since they don’t need to feed on their life energies (because they never turned their backs to the original creator and can feed from his light).
Through the Zionists, I am striving for the total control of the humanity on this Earth.

The Zionists are very influential in the United States government (among others, through the elitist “Skull and Bones” order that is a part of Zionism) and through the “Bilderbergers” also in other governments.

What is called the New World Order is a creation of them. We want to have a third world war to vastly reduce the world population that is now far too high and to take control of other areas of the world, too. This war will be a nuclear war and spread much radioactivity.

That fits our plans, since Anunnaki are immune to radioactivity and since radioactivity actually is a dark light, an “anti-light”, it is associated with death, since it comes from dying matter (falling apart) and since it kills or genetically harms three-dimensional biological systems.

From the energies of radioactivity, we can then create new matter and establish a really dark world and keep it still more isolated from the divine light of the original creator.
It isn’t easy to establish my rule over the Earth these days, since many know too much. I try to have their minds manipulated by subliminal means and in later years also certain pharmaceutical tools, secretly administered together with other drugs, such as newer forms of vaccines. I hope to, in that way, be able to partially zombify people and paralyze their own will so that they do as they are told.

There is a risk that groups may form that make themselves free from me, even if they may die, since they know that there is no death. Only the body dies, but the soul is immortal.

This dangerous practice of disobedience or non-cooperation was later also taught by Gandhi. It is dangerous for me but could also lead to your death, but as people with spiritual knowledge know, there is no real death. It is actually much better for you to die with a pure heart and a clean conscience than to participate in unjust activities only to preserve your life and material prosperity.

There, in the first place, is the personal, individual way to liberate oneself from me by means of affirmations like:

“I am totally free, liberated, and independent from Yahweh and his influence” and “I belong to the real Christ” (and not the fake Christ of my Church).

Then there is the decision to follow the ways Jesus wanted you to know: only do as your heart agrees with and as you know is right, otherwise disobey.

But it is not better for me and I don’t want people to know that, and the danger for me is that this can spread in growing groups that also acquire secret knowledge about me I don’t want them to have, so that I lose control over them.
Other extraterrestrial and mostly benevolent powers, have striven for influence over the Earth, but we fought them back and took control for ourselves.

Barbara Marciniak has written about this in her book Bringers of the Dawn, which we, for political reasons, brand as fiction and fantasy; but there is more truth in it than we want people to know. We established an energetic barrier around the Earth so that they cannot easily reach people here.

Still, they manage to get through with messages, like that book, and like this message here, in which they speak in my (Enki’s) name as of someone they want us to see in his true light (or his lack of it…)."

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

The Devil's Pocket.

I've been watching this series on Netflix called "The Paradise." This is a very skillfully made movie/show. I really enjoy the intelligence in how it was put together. When I came upon this one phrase, I just stopped the video. It stopped at 22:38 hahaha of the video. So I had to go back and hear it again, write it down. Here it is.

The Paradise (Series 1: Episode 7)

"You overestimate your authority. How do you know that I was telling you the truth?
You need to learn, Mr. Dudley, you cannot trust anyone.
All around you people utter lies and hold secrets that make men shudder.
Do not presume to know me, or anyone else... even those closest to you."

The X-Files (Season 1 Episode 24 The Erlenmeyer Flask )

Deep Throat: "Trust no one."

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Warning: Be Careful Of All Aliens.

From what I intuited today, we must be careful of all aliens whether good or evil because they all have an agenda, and they are not like us no matter how much they pretend to be 'just like us.' They'll tell us they're protecting us but they're only protecting their own interests. All we need to do for protection is to look inside ourselves and ask our Soul any questions we want answers to. Start a relationship with your Soul because it has all the answers you need and you will find love there too, as well as amongst others through their Souls as well.

The Mother of this whole place is Sophia. She accidentally made the aliens, it wasn't her intent to make them, but when she fell into this place, they suddenly just came into existence. It was because she is a young Aeon and was thinking to create Man and she was so immersed in that endeavor that she didn't know her mate was not with her, nor did she ask the Father for His/Her blessings, and that's why the aliens came out automatically when she fell into this universe. And then she ended up creating that which she meant to create from the beginning, when she got help from her mate and all of the Light Beings on the other side of this place. They all sent her help, and Man was created. So, Man comes from the Original, Autogenes, Father/Mother, but the aliens weren't created from them. That's why there is such a great difference between Man and alien. But the aliens did come from Sophia, so that makes them our half-brothers/sisters, and so we have to learn how to get along, as well as protect ourselves from the evil aliens' shenanigans. And they have some messed up shenanigans. First of all we have to get rid of them from off our planet. That's the main thing.

Friday, January 30, 2015

Dr. Corrado Malanga Removes Alien Abductions From Persons

In this video he uses the technique he/his staff created, to remove alien abductions permanently from people.

19-IT Lumen 2/2 - Alien abduction -TCTD by Corrado Malanga - Hypnosis  


Here is a Regression Of Bill Hermann's Abduction. In it the hypnotist asks him what they look like and he replies they look like fetuses, large fetuses.

Human and Animal Abduction

Alien Abductions and Human Mutilations

Grey Aliens, their Origins and Agenda

Tony Topping and Nigel Kerner. These two have voices like velvet. Very pleasant to listen to. And the story behind the voices is very important. Have a listen.

Who Are The Aliens? Who Is Cosmic Awareness? What Do They Want From Us?

Right from the get-go of reading the book "Lessons of Enlightenment" by Cosmic Awareness, I get an iffy feeling. There are many things unresolved when I look at it. That is why I wrote in my last post to be careful, to not jump in wholeheartedly, because there are aspects missing, and it seems like they are being purposely hidden. I don't like that. I like straight-forward honest communication. After all, that is the way of the Spirit. To be true. True from one's own self, and the other, true from their own self. That way things get accomplished much better, smoother. But with these communications, there feels to be some kind of deception. And I'm not joking. Every time I go to read that stuff, I'm excited to learn new information, to hear the loving communication, but everytime I go to read it, I'm distraught or perturbed or stepping on the brakes, I don't know what word goes there to best describe, but I don't like reading it anymore. I now have to step carefully, read everything thoroughly, with caution. You know? That's not easy reading.

The story of Sophia, the one I read in the Nag Hammadi Library, that Gnosis story, when I read it, I felt like this was it. Everything there just seemed to fit. I had to think a lot about it, and the more I thought, the more it made sense to me. There are a lot of things I don't yet understand about that story, but it gets clearer every time, as I progress in this life of mine. The pieces of the puzzle are fitting when I look at Cosmic Awareness' book. When Sophia fell into this place, she smashed into it and it cracked like ice, as John Lamb Lash described in his book "Not In His Image." I really am grateful that John Lash thought enough about all this, that he wrote that book. At the same time, I'm not in agreement with everything he says, but with most of the things he says. So you see, there's no deception there, because everyone has their own way of seeing. And on most of the material, we see eye-to-eye. But this Cosmic Awareness material always seems to bring out this wariness, incertitude, lack of confidence about what is being given. It feels sometimes like a being with a black velvet glove on an iron hand. I mean, maybe not that intense, but my sensitivity to this whole thing, just enhances that feeling of mistrust. I don't mean to be mistrustful, I don't mean to be rude....I'm just saying it like it is. Which is the way it should be said all the time. Honestly. So anyway, Sophia smashed into this place and instantly were created the Archons. There were a bunch of creatures that looked like a baby inside a womb, what's it called? Fetus. There were so many and Sophia didn't know what to do with them because she never expected this creation to occur. Her mind was on the creation of Man, so this was a surprise to her. She thought to help them, so she made a leader over them and this one turned out to look like a lions head with flashing red eyes and a snakes body. Something like that. So this being was half male half female but it took the form of a male in order to dominate over the slew of fetuses. So that being was known as the Prime Creator because it was given power over the others. But it was a disobedient ruler, and it stole power from its mother Sophia. Which is not done. This was the first time ever that someone did something like that to their Creator. So this was a disobedient, cunning, nasty little child that Sophia had popped out of her mind. And this is basically what Cosmic Awareness says he is.

(Isn't Narcissus the symbol of Mercury, which is the symbol of intellect, which is the symbol of, the BRAIN! Pinky and the BRAIN. Guess what? After all those aliens created Man the physical form, then Yaldaboath, the nasty arrogant disobedient ruler created the brain and put it in Man. Supposedly to use him to siphon off the brilliant energy that goes through Man the Being. Because Man was there, in the universe, but he was without a physical form. So Yalda-boy thought he would create a physical form which resembles Man so that man will be seduced to go jump into that body, and then he could imprison him in it, and like I said, steal energy if he can...if only he could understand. But half a being can only comprehend so mawch, U know?)

Now let's go to Dr. Corrado Malanga and his studies on alien abductions. This man is a scientist who also uses his higher self in his studies. Unlike the ignorant scientists who only do it for money. Dr. Corrado Malanga, as soon as you read deeply of his stuff, you can trust this man. He tells it like it is. These are his discoveries, and he describes it from his understanding. But you can easily comprehend in your own understanding what he is saying. It comes through clear. You know? So reading his material, I came across the feeling of pieces of the puzzle fitting together along with that which I learned from the Sophia story.

What really surprised me was that he said the aliens are only half of a being. And I had experiences in my life which showed me that. I have had an alien type of being come disturbing me. I was looking to find out why the god of the roman catholic bible threw Lucifer out of heaven, and I wasn't going to stop searching until I found out. Well, that's when a being came into my territory. They acted like they were Lucifer. But whenever I asked them any questions of a serious nature, they always dodged them. They were interfering too. When I was doing the laundry once, they said to me to not throw that green duffle bag into the washer. But I just ignored them and threw it in, and when it came out, everything in the wash was green. But I knew this was their way of trying to ingratiate themself into my life. I am always watchful of anything they tell me. In the absolute beginning of this visiting, this meeting that he pronounced on me, because I wasn't looking for some heinous false relationship with a liar. I decided to just allow it, and observe, so I can learn as much as possible. Well he used to compliment the heck out of me, and I felt like this guy is trying to pull the wool over my eyes. So instead of taking it, I started swearing at him, cutting him down, making him feel bad, because I didn't want those compliments. It seems like he was desperately trying to shove compliments down my throat so that it would make me pliable in his 'hands.' Anyway, after a bunch of experiences for a few years with him, I ended up having an incident where he showed himself to me, albeit maybe it wasn't a real picture, maybe it was a hologram, I don't know, but I do know that when I saw him, I saw only half of his body, the right side of him, which looked like a human, a very beautifully well designed human, and then I saw the other half, the left side was a black shadow. So straight through the top of his head down the center of his body he was halved. He had only one side of him that was able to be seen by me. So when I heard Dr. Corrado Malanga say that they are only half, I saw that for myself!

Then there was another incident just recently, in the Christmas holidays of  2013/14. There is a very wealthy man who my landlord has been friends with all his life. He use to be a body-builder and took steroids. Then he bought a bunch of gyms and became a multi-millionaire. Well, I don't know how to describe this other than what I experienced. I was very angry that day when my landlord invited me over that evening where there were a few people over his place celebrating Christmas that evening. I was very angry because I had just found out that my brother's wife who hated my sister who had just passed away, I found out she had stolen jewelry from her jewelry box and lied to me about it. It took ten months to find the truth. So I disowned them. And that night, they all wanted me to sit and talk with the rich guy, you know, beautiful woman, wealthy man. So I sat there and he was kind enough to listen to my story. And because inside of me was a raging negative feeling, anger, I suddenly saw into his eyes and they were the golden-greenest eyes I'd ever seen. One of them, the one on the left side had a black slit for a pupil. The one on the right had a round pupil. They were speckled throughout, like some animal's eyes. He was really kind to me, and they were really beautiful eyes, but as I looked deep into those eyes, it felt like I was looking at only half a being. It was the most absolutely strangest thing I had ever felt. How could a person be only half? I thought of his eyes for a long time afterwards wondering why it felt like I was looking at half a being. Well the strange thing is, the next day, (sorry, the next week. When I think of the incident it runs one next to the other in my mind, because nothing much happened inbetween), they invited me to go to his house to celebrate new year's with them, because I had no one else, my sisters both had died six months apart. When I walked into my landlords house and looked at that rich man's eyes....they were brown. Plain brown. And looking into those eyes of his, I didn't feel like I was looking into half a person. So I knew those gold-green eyes I had seen in him were not him. When I eventually brought this incident up to his attention, he told me that sometimes his eyes change color. Well, if that aint a lizard alien jumping in for some negative energy to feed off...seeing I was very angry when I sat down to talk to him the night before. So there again was another experience of sensing only HALF a being. I didn't see the being's body but through his eyes I sensed only a half of a being. And just yesterday I read Dr. Corrado Malanga saying the aliens are only half a being.

So in order for them to be full beings, they have to incarnate on Earth. Do you see Cosmic Awareness incarnating on Earth? Do you see the greys, or the lizards incarnating on Earth? They don't want to lose their pride. It's a low thing to be a human being. But they keep coming around trying to steal from us something we have, so that they don't have to incarnate and earn it. Like Jesus said, the wolf tries to come through the side, through the window! or the back door, but there's only one door open to Heaven. Hahaha!
Thank you Dr. Corrado Malanga for your research. You have helped more people than you realize!

Oh and, for closing this post, let's take a look at what Danny Wilten named his book! Orion in the Vatican. Isn't the Vatican known as the whore of babble-on and on and on? Certainly! Talk is cheap when it's done that way. So the Orion nebula is where Yaldaboath the lion-headed, flashing eyed, snake bodied being is at. The creating of stars, the covered throne, is in the bottom part of the "8" shape of the Orion constellation. It's in the sexual organs of that Orion constellation. That sexual organ area is what they say is birthing stars and stuff out into this, this place. That's where they say all this stuff here in this place was born from. So they call it God. But they don't know who created this God. Sophia! And since they don't know about Sophia, then they don't know who created HER! So there you go. Danny is smart to say he's staying on the surface of the evidence, because there is a lot to the metaphysical stuff, and I tell ya, there is a lot to learn of the spiritual stuff. I've been working the double numbers now, master numbers, for quite a few years. They started off slowly and then they just started coming in at me allllll the time. There is a LOT to learn about spiritual stuff. But this here is just a small fragment of what I can explain. So who is your god you roamin's? What is the ass-ass-in? In the Vatican. That's where the donkey makes his home. Anyway, I'm getting out of line. Thank you. Bye.

By the way... they are a lower life form, lower than animal.


Well hi again. I have to show you this. Here's an excerpt from the book (Force Feeding You) Lessons of Enlightenment, by Cosmic Awareness:

"Pleasure and pain, the spiritual judgmental pronouncement. Make no further
mistake: there is no other accurate judgment.

Spirit is consciousness and intention, and is experienced as thought and feeling.
Uninterrupted spirit, aided by images of mind, creates desired physical experience.
Pleasure is the validation and reward of spiritual fulfillment. Through this
path, the Universal Spirit is allowed to sense Itself through many widely varying
experiences carried out by all the physical forms. Each form, whether it is
vegetable, mineral, animal or human offers its unique portion of the totality of
experience by accomplishing its own expression. Indeed, every unit of matter is
imbued with conscious spiritual intention following the pleasure/pain, attraction
and repulsion principle—including subatomic quanta."

What the fuck is that? Huh? In the Sophia story and in other parts of the Nag Hammadi Library, it shows us that our Father the Ultimate Creator doesn't need anything from anyone. He created us all out of Love, gave us free will and set us on our way. This one who calls himself "the totality of All That Is," and like I said earlier, he was most likely the one who said, "and I am the only god and there is no other god besides me, and I am a jealous god...." This, this bullshit about pleasure and pain being the only accurate judgment, make no further mistake, is only a method to tear you apart from your own self. Separate and meddle within, or what was that saying? Divide and conquer. That is what Dr. Corrado Malanga said the aliens were teaching. To split the human's understanding of themselves into parts, the spirit, soul, mind, emotions, body...that is dividing them in subtle ways to weaken them away from their wholeness and whole understanding so that they could meddle, interfere inside of them, to steal or manipulate, puppet them as they please. The Mother says to awaken and to stay awake. To not allow any form of bondage to be placed upon you. Because those demons are always looking for ways to interfere with you and your sovereignty. The author of that book is so full of shit. Everything he teaches is based on materiality, on matter, not on spirit. And everything I read sounds so deceptive and selfish. He hasn't changed one bit! They try to deceive us into thinking that he has changed for the better because he learned form the Son, Jesus, who sits on his right-hand. Well that's a load of crap. I can see in this present day, this book spills all the bullshit right in the face. Evidence peers its ugly head! Don't ask me to clean up my language. Clean up what you see in that writing by Cosmic Awareness, and you have the truth. You can see he's only in it for himself. It said in the Sophia story that once he was told by the angels, posing as his advisers (to trick Yaldo and help Sophia) to breathe into Man out of his own breath, because Sophia wanted to get her power back which he had stolen, then he breathed into Man and lost some of that power. That's what he's been after Mankind the whole time for, to try and steal back that power which he had stolen from the Mother Sophia. So get that. It shows in the writing all through that damned book!

He says: Uninterrupted spirit, aided by images of mind  Well, that book by Danny Wilten explains how Michaelangelo painted that picture of god in a brain, stretching his finger out toward Man, and it signifies that he is trying to puppet Mankind through the brain. But seeing Mankind is not obedient to a deceiver, himself who calls himself their only god that there is no other above him, he tries to turn their attention back to himself in any way possible, even hypocritically talking about love. What's love got to do with it? We've seen what kind of love he has. It's no wonder they tagged Eros with Narcissus and Mercury with Brain, and Pain and Pleasure go hand in hand in that combination. That's all he's telling us about. There is no talk about Sophia, any kind of female form or figure, nothing of higher Spirit, only about how self-gratification works. If you do as I say, you get pleasure. If you don't do as I say, you get pain. That sounds a mite like forceful intimidation if you ask me.

 You know... don Juan Matus from the Carlos Castaneda books said that there is a big shadow being they call the eagle which eats every Man's consciousness upon death in order to feed on their experiences they had through life. That is why the Toltec Sorcerers all work on their inner abilities so they don't have to die, and instead they sneak past the eagle with their consciousness, fooling the eagle with the replica they created by doing recapitulation. They give that to the eagle and it takes it, while they escape free from its mouth. So you see, all the picture is coming together. The symbols are telling the story. Here's a picture of the Orion nebula. It sort of resembles an eagle.

To see the picture in full, right click the picture and open in a new tab.

 Eros = False love.

It says in this picture of the Milky Way Chart: "Despite the brilliance of the Lagoon Nebula and similar objects like the famous Orion Nebula, such areas are usually little more than hot blisters on the flanks of giant interstellar clouds."

Which makes me to think about something I've read in "The Apocryphon of John." It says:
"through the gift of the Spirit the four lights (appeared) from the divine Autogenes," "the light-aeon Armozel," "the second light (is) Oriel," " the third light is Daveithai," " the fourth light Eleleth."
And Sophia is from the light Eleleth. Which is where the tiny little hot blister Orion nebula is at.
So just think. It flanks GIANT interstellar clouds, which sounds like the first, second, and third lights that came before the fourth one that we're in.


Tuesday, January 27, 2015

"Orion In The Vatican," by Danny Wilten, And Symbolism

This is an excerpt from Danny Wilten's e-book. Orion In The Vatican:

"Symbolism is extremely important in understanding our past because it represents the metaphor of an idea many times better than language."

For example, the saying: The mountain high and the valley low.

When you look at the symbolism in that passage, it shows a number 8. The heighth and depth. The crossing over from one side to the other, which is the center of the eight, which is the in-between the mountain and the valley. When you fold the eight over then it goes even deeper. So that's the importance of symbolism. It tells a story deeper than words can tell.

Nothing is from nothing. In other words, to put it more clearly, everything that there is, came from something. Some say the word "Nothing" or "Void" like as if something came from nothing. But that is out of the result of not seeing deeply. So they think that everything came from nothing because they can't see far enough to know who that something, that everything, came from, is. Would you to be able to truly See, you would see that everything came from Everything. And that everything is still alive and well. It is in everything. And let me show you how to decipher by using symbolism, for symbolism is the truest way you are going to get close enough to discovering who this everything is, and thereby understand your own self, situation, position. The how you got where you are at now. And then, the magnificent journey opens up to your consciousness a joyful experience. Because it is, it is so enjoyable to finally find out how you got here and what you are doing here. Everything just becomes worth it, no matter what you are presently struggling with.

The first thing you have to do is start becoming aware of the symbols. Symbols are not literal. They go out past all time and place, and yet there is order in them, to them. They are like a sign that tells you something which means the same thing everywhere else, and so it bridges the gaps between all the little steps which are unnecessary when you know the direction by the sign, that symbol. So it passes all those little steps that are only for those who are still looking in the literal sense for something which is on a greater and higher level than on the nose to the grindstone level. I was reading a book earlier, and I want to excerpt a part of it to show you how the symbolism was inserted in there, whether or not Ramtha the being who spoke those words, whether or not he knew what he was saying consciously in all multi-dimensions, doesn't matter. Those words are the symbols that are being portrayed out from the great Someone, Everyone, that those who don't have a clue call it nothingness. Because this Everything talks through everyone and everything. You see? You don't have to be consciously aware of it, but you may be speaking the symbols perfectly out of an Order that you are still as yet not aware of their Presence! That's why it's important to step back and look at everything from a different angle, not an egotistical personal angle, but a personal angle which involves your higher way of looking at things.

From: "Ramtha; The White Book"

     "While I was recovering from my ghastly wound and couldn't do anything else, I began to contemplate everything around me. One day I watched an old woman pass from this plane clutching heartily the crudely woven linen she had made for her son who had perished long ago. I saw the woman pass in the light of the noonday sun, life ebbing from her body in choking strokes of weeping. As I watched the old woman shrivel in the light, her mouth opened to an aghast expression and her eyes became glazed, unaffected by the light. Nothing moved, save the breeze and her old hair. I thought about the woman and her son who had perished, and I thought about their great intelligence. Then I looked back at the sun, which never perished. It was the very same sun the old woman had seen through a crack in the roof of her hovel when she first opened her eyes as a babe, and it was the last thing she saw when she died. I looked again at the sun. You know, it was oblivious that she had died. I watched it as we buried the old woman under a tall poplar tree by the river.

     As the sun set that evening, I cursed it. I watched it set upon the mantle of the mountains like a fiery jewel, scarlet-eyed. I looked upon the purpled mountains and the valley, already shrouded in mist, and saw rods of the sun's light gild all things and make them illusionarily beautiful. I saw clouds, once the pallor of blue, become vividly alive in hues of scarlet, fire-rose, and pink. I continued to watch the great light as it retired behind the mountains, now looming like piercing teeth on the horizon, until the last rods of its beauty had descended behind the last mount. I heard a night bird cry above me, and I looked into the heavens to see the pale moon waxing against a darkening sky. A breeze came up and as it blew my hair and dried my tears it made me sick in my being. You know, I was a great warrior. With a sword I could cleave a man in half in a moment. I had beheaded, hacked, and butchered. I had smelled blood and burned people. But why did I do all of that? The sun set in its magnificence anyway. The bird cried in the night anyway. And the moon came up in spite of it all.

     That is when I began to ponder the Unknown God. The only thing I truly wanted was to understand that which seemed so awesome, so mysterious, and so very far away."


 Here's a nice excerpt from a Cosmic Awareness book called "Lessons Of Enlightenment."

"The time has come to impart the Lessons of Enlightenment, for the ushering in
of the New Millennium. The Lessons are offered to facilitate the unfolding of
the New Age, which symbolizes the restoration of humans to their intended
evolutionary pathway, which allows for the maximum evolution and expansion
of Universal Consciousness. It is an era of renaissance through which entities
can awaken from the sleep-inducing, dogmatic and manipulative assertions of
mankind and realign with the divine source of universal knowledge which lies

It is a time to celebrate the reconnection between the individual and the totality
of All That Is. It is a time to become receptive to the Divine Grace, the love and
faith that has been placed in humankind. It is a time to honor the faith, to acknowledge
and reclaim the resources and abilities that empower humans rather
than allow them to remain mired and enslaved within their own earthly illusions.
It is a time for every soul to rise to the challenge of realigning the spirit,
the will, the mind and the body. It is a time of joyous self expression.

The Lessons provide the light, but it is the task of the individual to enlist the
will and to actively choose the pathway to receive the light. This requires the
trust that each individual was created with the innate capacity to know, to experience,
and attune to an inner guidance. This requires the courage to set aside
those beliefs, and habits of thought and action that now severely limit the soul,
yet masquerade as the very truths for which humans feel compelled to fight and
to die. For the feelings are indeed instrumental in such choices, but not without
the understandings to be imparted in these Lessons.

The Lessons Of Enlightenment will arrive like pearls of wisdom, for each entity
to assemble into an invaluable adornment which can become an enduring talisman
against external manipulation and a symbol of the choice for, and commitment to
individual empowerment, soul development, to individual, social, and spiritual evolution,
to love replacing fear, to light replacing darkness, to the rejection of evil, and to the
unwavering faith in the Universal Divine. It is to be worn with honor, legitimate pride,
dignity, compassion and self respect. It cannot be worn if there is insincerity, a refusal
to question existing beliefs, denial of spiritual impetus, denial of will energy or violation
or denial of others. For such denial not only negates the soul, but also denies Universal
Consciousness and each individual's rightful place in the connectedness of All That Is.

The actions of the wearer will always defy any such attempts at deception, for
legitimate actions will always spring from a new motivative source, demonstrating
the understanding, the awareness and the grace that the Lessons
embody. The actions of entities automatically provide testimony to the degree
of alignment between spirit, will, mind and body. Indeed, upon grasping the
understandings that the Lessons provide, human essence, human nature, human
behavior, human evolution and human destiny will all become far less mysterious.

This is like a vessel of opportunity. This is a time of great potential. This is a
time for each entity to rise to the challenge of participation in the turning of the
tide and in the laying of the groundwork for accelerated development. This is
the time to realign with the Universal Divine, the Love Force, the Universal
Consciousness of All That Is. The vessel of opportunity has arrived.

Welcome aboard.

(by Cosmic Awareness)


Nevertheless, before you delve in wholeheartedly, here is some food for thought.

Dr. Corrado Malanga says:

“I actually realized that, while studying the aliens, I made a serious methodological mistake: it is not possible to study the aliens without knowing beforehand how we ourselves are made. Pretty soon I understood that the aliens were looking in us for something that they didn’t have, something which we didn’t know we had, something that makes many men an integral part of Consciousness”

If it smells like a trap, and feels like a trap, maybe it is a trap. Eh? Maybe not. Jump in and find out!

I mean, one has to be careful in a nervous Universe.
Corrado Malanga Videos Describing Their Findings

Sunday, January 25, 2015

The Sorcery of Burning Bright Light.

Sorry to say, but.... some types of love equal self-destruction. I don't think too many beings on this Earth know exactly what I'm talking about, after all, it's hard for myself to fathom it. I thought love was suppose to be the eaaasiest thing around to do. But I find it is not so. For example, the beauty in it can be utterly abominably wicked...it can destroy you like a light from the sun through a magnifying glass, and you can say you're the insect under that ray. What happens? hahaha burn right up, self-destruct. So one has to be super strong in order to deal with such a blasphemously terribly horribly strong thing. I guess it might be the devil. The devil to contend with. If it's not that then what is it? It attracts you like a powerful magnet and you have to fight it off with all your might. And if there are any of you out there, you KNOW what I'm talking about. Have you come from the darkness too? Then the invisible light of love is truly the most challenging thing in our lives, huh. What a wicked wicked thing to have to deal with such as this. Has anyone any tips, clues, help, with which to guide me through this, this, thick of it? I have to find something, because I am always on the brink of self-destruction when that powerful love comes knocking around. It's terrifying! I guess I really do value my life. Maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I should be quick on the draw and get it over with. Melt like a witch under the influence of water. Hahahaha. It's evil. That's what it is. Well, it's only because I haven't found a way to deal with it yet. But when I do, I won't call it evil anymore. But until then....fucking evil stuff....stuff that burns, burns burns! Owch!

Help me my brothers/sisters. What did you do to help yourself out in a squash? Just send it in a message through the mind.

Self-Destructive Personality.

soul attraction to destruction

                  Perceiving people

There are a variety of maps to the terrain of the human heart. Some
are excellent and some are less than adequate, designed by people
who know little about themselves and others. A well-crafted map can
help you explore the landscape of who people are and why they do
the things they do, spotting major landmarks, obstacles and clear

Maps label things clearly to help people avoid getting lost. It is true
that labels can be limiting and self-fulfilling, but without a legend or
clearly labeled landmarks a map is useless. Like a map that helps differentiate
between a river and a forest, a mountain or a canyon, a
map that helps us differentiate between different types of people can
be quite useful. Understanding the mannerisms, behaviors and
thought patterns of certain types of people can help us better develop
techniques for effective communication and form the basis of strong
relationships. For example, a cautious person will deliberate for a
long time before making a purchase, but a passionate person might
make a decision in a matter of seconds. An intellectual person needs
time to think about the formula that will provide the solution to a problem,
while an emotionally centered person like Einstein often knows
the answer before fully comprehending the problem solving formula.
Having a clearer understanding of how people operate can provide
adequate context for shaping our own responses to our world and the
people around us.
From: The Personessence System For Understanding People


Hahaha! This is so funny! I think I've found what the nemesis is!

"Those with the goal of Rejection tend to regard relationships as unnecessary distractions, something to be avoided or at least kept at arm’s length."

Hahaha. That is too funny. It's about exactly what I'm like in this lifetime. You can read about it here:


Oh and I found something else while searching. "Jesus said that it is better to lose an eye than that the whole bodily instrument be desecrated by evil—it is better to forgo illicit sensory indulgence than to lose the infinite unending joys of the soul's communion with Spirit." I think that describes it! For example, if one is to have a soul-mate around and that soul-mate is still an infantile sleepwalker then obviously opening up your heart to that being is useless because all that blood is going to drain down into the sewer. So there is no sense splitting hairs by being with an immature imbecile. It is better to be with an idiot married man who doesn't require your heart and soul, only your friendship. It is, it is still better, than being with a poor soul-mate when you put it in the balance. You see, with the married man, there is less damage and more conservation of energy. But with a careless soul-mate you can be drowned out of all your energy and then left for dead while they go on ceaselessly with their idiocy. Or, you just might manipulate energy and destroy them, which is even worse. Then you pay a whole lotta lot. So, what is more dangerous? Being with a married man? or being with a foul-hearted soul-mate? If you're stupid enough to think it is being with a married man, then you're wrong. Because a powerful one may actually help the ailing little baby, that married man, to have some spiritual learning, while they themselves become masters of patience and tolerance. But with a soul mate who is gone bad, one may become heated in negative emotion and even destroy the very being they're suppose to be helping. It depends on how weak or strong you are. And I am weak. I would rather destroy an idiot than sleep with them. My passions may burn me, so therefore, I am not ready for such a great challenge as a soulmate gone trainwreck. I hope they get some help somewhere. Anywhere but here. Hahaha. I tell ya. I tell ya. There is a fire burning and I don't like anyone looking under the veil. So, there you go. I may be as terrible as an army with banners, but so is he, so is he. So fuck you. Let me be.

The excerpt from that one is found on this page: Soul Mates


Jan 26, 2015, 5:15pm

Well, I won't be calling falling in love "evil" anymore. I just found out, from my own efforts, what this has been all about all along. The emotions were telling me I am a very powerful person. And if I ended up with an irresponsible selfish man, then I would obviously use those powers and not in a pleasant way. I remember how many times I was told that I was a dangerous person. And now I understand what they mean. Stupid little spoilt children who come playing with electricity, don't make a happy crispy. Edward, for example, some married German foreman of a plastics company that I worked at when I was 21 or so, started dating me. We were at a restaurant and I was about to go use the washroom, when he said to me, "you're dangerous." The way he looked at me and said it, hm, as I went to the washroom I was thinking to myself, what the hell is he talking about? I have heard stuff from people who see stuff that at the time, I either didn't see, or I wasn't allowing it to be shown, and yet they saw. So yea. I now know that if someone wants something from me and they are disrespectful, they are selfish, they are a liar, a thief, a murderer, anything that dark, well....they are going to meet the dark Goddess in return, when they least expect it, yes I AM dangerous.

Well, I'm not afraid of love anymore. Now I understand it, I am armed.

I guess you could say.... as a metaphor, that my symbol would be a bright red splotch of color in the center of pure blackness. And there's the light right there, the invisible light, if you could understand what the fuck that means.

Oh My God Inside!

J. Geils Band - Rage In The Cage

Golen Earring (is that like a Pirate?) - Twilight Zone

Daern, after that pleasant sound, it is hard to move on! But move along we shall.

Billy Idol - Eyes Without A Face

Eagles - One of These Nights 1977 Live

John 5- Gods and Monsters

Koyi K Utho - Demential State

T. Rex - (Bang A Gong) Get It On [1971]
Kingdom Come - Get It On (Live '88)

Kashmir - Led Zeppelin

Whenever There Is You!

You, the sunshine of my dreams....whenever there is you....

Darling? What have I got for you? What have you got for me? What have we for one another?
I don't know. I can't answer any one of those questions.... but...I can say, I love you and you love me, I know, and we love everyone else around us. That means something.

Let's dance, everyone, with the Devil under the Pale Moonlight. Marilyn? The Pale Emperor will be our friend. All of us will be friends. W c anderstand. W e  c a n  y e s  w e    can, understand, we come from a long way from here but so close it's easy to be here, anyway.

We be .. whoevah we be.



Do you still love me?
Or did you forget how?
Let me show  you the way....

And here's some Brother Belz, a Beautiful kind. I love him. Who wouldn't when they knew who he was, too. So here's to you Brutha Belz. Love You!

"Financial war coming to a head, Swiss join Pentagon/UK/BRICS alliance

The radical plunge in the Euro last week against the Yen, the US dollar and especially the Swiss Franc is a clear indication the battle over control of the financial system, and the world, is coming to a climax."

 A CLOSE. Fuck the climax. We've had enough theatrix already. Forget the climax, think Close. SEE EL OH EhSssss Eee. Hahahaha. Close. If you really want to be. I'm pretty varm ven I vant to be.

When there is seed, there is a cup to fill it, and from that cup comes a thousand crops all different kinds of life forms. But hey, it takes a thinking mind to grasp what I'm saying...even would I to scramble all the words so it couldn't be recognized intelligibly, still, the thinking kind will pick up the message behind the subterfuge, and will understand what I'm saying, whether or not it is readable or intelligible. Ever heard of someone picking up the vibes from the food they eat? Say, a salad has its vibe and a pork dinner has its. You see that the vibration is only a surface representation of the depth of the meaning behind the being. But when everything finally comes together so that plants are as important as pigs? Then we finally get to the pearly gates of real meaning. Yes, if we are abusing things over mawch, then yah, I'd say, lets reconfigure what we are thinking,saying,doing, and thereby change our experience physically as well as mentally, and all that follows. What we need is a way to communicate clearly. Let's ask Rob Zombie about how that works. After all, things that work on level three, don't necessarily work the same way on level four. So Rob Zombie, seeing he has more than only a level four education, he can show us the way to the new land, just by being Black Sunshine.

If you're triple air? I am triple fire. I could use some of that good clean air around, uh? Hmhmhm...

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Red & Purple, Six & Seven.

RED the color of the Root Chakra. The Mother. VIOLET is the color of the Crown Chakra. The Father. Always always my favorite color was red. I loooove red. It is me. Inside and out. I'm an Aries so that may also help haha!

Nevertheless, I also loooved violet. It's such a pretty color. I have an eyeshadow, Ultra-Violet. Beautiful color. Those two colors don't mix very well when you're doing interior decorating. They seem to both have to have their own separate rooms. Like for example, red goes well with burgundy, black, gold, deep browns. But violet goes well with blues, greens, and pastel colors. It can take the strong and the soft colors. But red cannot take pastel colors because itself becomes pink. Hahaha. I remember a movie where the guy said the word "Pink," as in the color of the little girl's dress. Haha. Red becomes a little girl when white is added. But nothing wrong with that. You can then mix pink, lellow and pale green. Then you have a nice color combo. I mean you can mix dark red with dark green and dark gold, they too look good. But we're talking about real red. The kind that goes with wine and black.

Anyway. That's what those things mean.... to me anyway. You go to the numbers, and you get beauty for six, and intellect for seven. You put beauty and intellect together and you have a really nice painting which actually has meaning and purpose behind it. I'll probably bring out the depths of this conversation later, such as like when you combine the two numbers and they create royalty, which is the number 13. I don't know why ever anyone feared the number thirteen but it's proof they do or did by the fact that some high rise buildings don't have that floor numbered, but instead it goes from 12, 14, 15. Hahaha! Silly silly stuff. But yea, there is a deeper meaning than the shallow fear filled one.

But hey, that's the power of colors and numbers to get a story across. Anyone can use it. First find out what your favorite color is, then look for the symbols in your life which attract to it and you will find a story becoming clear to you about your own true self. Everything means something.

Yeah. The only thing red and ultra-violet are pleasant together in, is a sunset!

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Here's To......

Here's to the Taurus Tiger. Lovely!

And here's to the Gemini Pisces!

Listen. Eighty-eight and Ninety-nine might not mean something to you, but, they mean something to me. Look at Johnny Depp. He's a Gemini Pisces and he's awesome. Need I say anymoe?

Here's to you.